There are many people in my life that I miss.
Some I let go and some let me go, some passed on and some just moved to a better place.
The person who I think about on a daily basis is my father. I was not around when he passed away and I was not very present in the last years of his life. I don't have many regrets in my life, but this is one. I remember being soooo mad at him for leaving but I also knew it was for the best. We had some rough times, but even though..all I remember is the good.
I remember taking road trips for no reason, other then my Dad loved to drive.
I remember eatting at so many different places because he loved good food.
I learned to be a good tipper because of my father.
I remember going on vacations, with my whole family and extended family, all on his dime.
I remember how people used to look up to him and how I loved when people called him "Rupie"
I remember passing by Ruperts on I90 and him telling me "that's my resturant"
I remember him falling in love with Enigma and buying all thier tapes.
I remember taking him to see Malcolm X and how he grabbed my hand at the end.
I remember his love that he gave to me and many others.
I still write my father and I know when I speak to him he still hears me.
I love you Dad, I always will. Thanks you for being the man you were.
WOW Mariam..this brought tears to my eyes. As you get older you come realize that our parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles....those before us....made so many mistakes in their lives. Me, I chose to move forward and focus on the positive instead of letting the past overtake you.
ReplyDeleteI loved your dad so much. He was my uncle Rupie. The one who never left me behind when you guys visited Jamaica. He made sure I came on all the trips that you were on. The one who always looked out for me. The one who wanted me to be part of his family when my mom left JA.
I remember even as an adult when I saw him in Jamaica, he took me all over the island. He sure loved to drive. My one regret is that the last time I saw him he asked me to make sure I write him and I never did and he passed away.
My heart broke into so many pieces then but I choose to hold on to all the good because he was so good to me. I still have my most favorite picture in the whole wide word...me and my uncle Rupie.
I love you my dear cousin and don't forget that if you need anything, I will be here for you just like he was for me.
Love Kahleil
BTW: He hears and sees you. I am sure of it.
I love you Kahleil!!!!! Thank You.
ReplyDeleteWow. I really had to sit with this for a while. Reading this was like a puzzle piece shifting in to place. You (and Mathew) are the best part of his amazing story.
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